Just me, my thoughts and my keyboard

I was just ruminating...

... that exactly a year ago, I was lying in hospital from dengue fever.

Fast forward a year later to present, things are very much different.

I'm not sure about you but I do now think that things happen for a reason, good or bad. Previously when the shit hits the fan, I start to question my spiritual beliefs, why He is not helping, why is He letting it happen, etc.

I now communicate very well with God and I feel totally at peace spiritually. I look forward to Sunday masses now whereas (get ready for this) it used to be a drag sometimes in the past (oops!).

Things are going on well for me in my studies and training but I do wish time can pass faster during the studying!

Back to the dengue fever episode, it made me sit up and look around at the loved ones around me and realisation hits - lightning streaked across the sky, thunder rumbled and my eyes opened - that the one who was not there should not be a loved one anymore.

The Delete button was pressed and with it went all dodgy hopes and any clinging optimism along with it. Fresh water was poured into the then-empty glass.

I did not enjoy being ill and lying on the hospital bed, waiting for time to pass (where in reality it crawled). But I did enjoy the three weeks of medical leave after that. The mornings of leisurely walks to the coffeeshop to have my coffee, toast bread and eggs while catching up on the morning paper. They may not be expensive truffles or equally pretentious earl grey, but they brought out the best experience of that "sick" period. The rest of the morning was usually filled in with DVDs (I remember Click and Gwen Stefani very well) and a nap. And not to forget those mornings of medical reviews at Mount E along Orchard, followed by leisurely shopping walks and lunches with Cheryl who tottered out of her Wheelock Place office before her other colleagues do! Oops!

I do miss the days at my ex-company. The whole days of doing nothing but talking to other colleagues and acting busy (when workload is light, of course). And especially the days of rushing through proposals with the chums and meeting the datelines (and hence avoiding being screwed). The satisfaction of seeing through a successful project and restraining the impulse to retort arrogant management fools.

Ah... those were the days.

Apologies if this post doesn't make sense at all. I will try to blog more often, just give me some time to rediscover my writing touch and blogging prose.