Yeah I know it has only been less than two months since the start of 2009 but I am already feeling the heat.
I made an error in judgment in work, and committed a disciplinary dismeanor unknowingly and I wonder if it will cost me my job. The jury is still out and I am praying fervently that I will make it. In other times, I am sure I don't have to worry about losing this job, but not in the current global economic meltdown. Damn those bankers!
I am feeling the heat from my exams too. Well prepared as I was, I was reckless during the exams (which I normally am not) and this may have cost me the assuage of passage in three papers. I lie awake at night and wonder why I have made those mistakes which I do not make in my daily work but I cannot explain why. I have been kicking myself so hard I can feel bruises inside me but if only I could turn back the clock and redo those papers again...
But in retrospect, everything is perfect.
I have already started making preparations for a backup job in case this one fails me. I guess chances are that I will go back to the industry that I have left so enthusiastically half a year ago. Not due to passion definitely, but due to circumstances. What puts bread on your table (and pays your cover charges into clubs) is most critical.
I will feel the regret no doubt, for I have already proven myself to be, not the most brilliant, but a competent aviator. Being axed from this will be of tremendous pain to me but I shall accept it.
My head is on the guillotine but I do hope the blade does not fall though.
I feel like bawling out loud but no one can hear me...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I made an error in judgment in work, and committed a disciplinary dismeanor unknowingly and I wonder if it will cost me my job. The jury is still out and I am praying fervently that I will make it. In other times, I am sure I don't have to worry about losing this job, but not in the current global economic meltdown. Damn those bankers!
I am feeling the heat from my exams too. Well prepared as I was, I was reckless during the exams (which I normally am not) and this may have cost me the assuage of passage in three papers. I lie awake at night and wonder why I have made those mistakes which I do not make in my daily work but I cannot explain why. I have been kicking myself so hard I can feel bruises inside me but if only I could turn back the clock and redo those papers again...
But in retrospect, everything is perfect.
I have already started making preparations for a backup job in case this one fails me. I guess chances are that I will go back to the industry that I have left so enthusiastically half a year ago. Not due to passion definitely, but due to circumstances. What puts bread on your table (and pays your cover charges into clubs) is most critical.
I will feel the regret no doubt, for I have already proven myself to be, not the most brilliant, but a competent aviator. Being axed from this will be of tremendous pain to me but I shall accept it.
My head is on the guillotine but I do hope the blade does not fall though.
I feel like bawling out loud but no one can hear me...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
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U will make it!
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